i am fucking random

I cannot wait for the holiday season.

The best memories I have are the ones I create during these months.
I've always been the happiest from the beginning of Fall through the transition into Winter - definitely has to do with the cold weather.

The city is so lovely right now.
When I left last weekend, the city was hot.
Now that I've returned I feel the change of the impending crispness to come.

Plus, the Bay Bridge is closed indefinitely because of a crappy repair job last month and there aren't as many cars in the city.
It feels oh so very nice not sharing my city and not feeling cramped.

Though togetherness is always nice, too.
You know what I miss most about having a boyfriend?
Getting to have sex with my best friend.
I haven't really felt that way since 2004, even though last year was a whiff of that lovely air.

Although I'm not entirely in the mood for a relationship - it's a nice idea but that would require so much that I just can't give right now - there are moments I do miss having a counterpart.
That sounds weird because it's not like I don't feel whole - it's quite the opposite, actually.
I feel so complete that the desire to share this feeling is palpable.

Now that I think of it, the best and longest relationship I've had was born when I was the busiest.
I was 19 and R.A. at State.
4 classes, Bi-Weekly Meetings, R.A. duties - I was all over the place. I didn't have time for anything.
And yet, there I was - doing everything.

Dude! My Republican friend, Nick - he's not really a Republican, I just call him that because we're all politics - told me about this site called StumbleUpon and I am HOOKED! It takes you to random sites it thinks you will love and then you give that site a thumbs up or down and you'll receive the sites accordingly. It's so random - I absolutely love it!

I totally went off on a tangent - i'm high...my mind goes down where it needs to go, you know...

Random fact about me: Once upon a time, in a life where the first fantasies of forever were born, I was married on the Serengeti by the Maassei tribe while the sun set down on the earth gently leaving it's echo of light.

His idea.

How could I say "no" to that?